My brain is mush. I am thinking of sweet Pearl and how unfair it is to have another friend lose a child. Logical me knows that there is no rhyme or reason to why accidents happen, but in my heart, I am sad and angry and afraid. I am so sick of the universe throwing lost children, miscarriages, infertility, autism at my friends. This seems like a childish rant, but that's where I am right now. Shaking. I feel blessed to have what I have, but so fucking angry about what's been taken away from others. I am thinking of you, MM, and keeping your family in my prayers.